I am (re)writing my article and job seeking and putting together a liturgy for a few weeks’ time so no proper reflection this week. I am sort of sorry but also conscious that probably noone will miss it. But I will share here a prayer I wrote.
As part of putting together the afore-mentioned liturgy I was reading through reams of “penitential rites” full of “Lord have mercy” (sometimes in Latin “Kyrie eleison”) and not feeling ok about how glibly even feminists take on Kyriearchal language (or at least accept it so long as it is in a dead language).
Even though in my liturgy my theme for reconciliation will be Reconciliation (as in the unfinished business colonial Australia has with the real owners of this land) I wrote an alternative that I may use another time to help me reject the idea that kyriearchy is needed for repentance (which means turning around) and transformation.
I also reflected on the idea of “mercy”. What do we mean when we ask God/Jesus?Wisdom to “have mercy” on us. Are we still invoking those interpretive traditions where God wants to punish us for our sins unless we grovel? Or where God will “save” us from anything unpleasant? So I wondered how to put into words what we might mean by “have mercy” when I feel that the point of a penitential rite is to reconnect ourselves to a more positive relationship with God (as manifest in our lives and relationships with ourselves, others and the earth).
So here is my imperfect attempt, which I may or may not use or improve further down the track.
For making you our “Father” so that we might hide behind the helplessness of a child,
for making you our “Lord” so that we might put down ourselves and others in your name,
for expecting you to lead us into battle when you came offering peace:
we are truly sorry.
For the anxieties and mistrust that stop us living more genuinely,
for the despair and retreat that stifle our response to your call,
for the profound loneliness of a life focussed on comfort and privilege:
we ask healing and transformation
For the days of our life yet unlived,
for our suffering brothers and sisters that call out for us to join our voices and hearts to theirs,
for the good news that has not yet opened every heart:
we promise to enter more deeply when you invite us.
Loving God we accept your healing and your call
as we know you accept our good intentions and our love. Amen.
Stef Rozitis 2016